My challenges....

So....I'm all ready to start on my new found quest to train up these boys to become Godly husbands and fathers.  To read and apply and to teach and to show.  Show?  God really placed this one on my heart.  How do I show them to be a good husband and father, I am not either of those.  I can tell them what a good hubby and daddy will do and be like, but how do I show them.  While they do have a good daddy to look up to, I really feel a burden to do everything I can to do in this area.  God was not slow to tell me what I needed to do......become an amazingly Godly wife.  I have to admit that I slacked in this area.  I have been known to have an attitude with my husband, to not be submissive and to be too tired or irritated to show love to him.  How are my boys supposed to have a happy, loving marriage when they grow up if they don't see one now.  How are they supposed to know what qualities to look for in a wife if they don't see examples of that at home.  That is a hard question to ask yourself.....do you want your boy to end up with a wife like you?  Do you want him treated the way you treat your husband?  To be honest NO!!  Just to be clear, I'm not a horrible wife, but I could be so  much better....I can finally be the wife that God has called me to me!